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thatdeadaquarius · 10 months ago

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Topic: Genshin impact.

au: Sagau.

idea: So what if you had the powers of every character you played as in every game you played and then get isekaid into genshin impact with imposter au. I imagine it goes smth like

Zhongli: “I will have order!”

reader, Who played Roblox as someone who lagged the game (explanation: I’m pretty sure ping is also how time works in games. If you can control the flow of ping you can control the flow of time in games.): “ZA WARUDO!”

Heyyy!! Thanks for waiting for the reply/response from my slow ass :0

So they did clarify what they meant/expand so imma just copy paste that here!

“k now I remember. So basically imma write it here since it’s easier: Basically you don’t have to (but you can) transform into the character that has those set of powers but if you do those powers are enhanced.”

Sun: Reader (”you”/they/them)

Orbit: Headcanons-ish, Light Imposter AU (as in, NOT Yandere/Dark), mild crossover elements bc Shapeshifter Shenanigans™️

Stars: bro idek

Comets & Meteors: Content Warnings: mild cussing, genshin typical mild violence, & Trigger Warnings: none known.

Please comment if I missed any. /gen

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so fair warning,, ive never seen jojo bizarre, but i appreciate i come off well-read/watched? LMAO

so im just gonna kinda,, guess? like just cycle thru diff. random media, and im hoping both me and you reading this will have a fun time (as this is a little challenge, but i like it so ill give it a shot, dont kno if its a good one but- 😅)

so to set the scene, of how u got to this point, ykno of running like ur life (maybe?) depends on u running around different teyvat countries,

u thought it was weird everyone knew a little too much about you?? (ofc theyve heard u during gaming, they know u the same way we all know Markiplier, get it?)

then a bunch of NPCs/Vision users/Archons?? were REALLY invested in talking to you, which freaked u out even more

and by the time you saw Zhongli, yknow, just the oldest god in game, making a fast-walk towards you, ykno the retired god who didnt move an inch when an old water god attacked Liyue for a test, is now hurrying to you???

ur logically get so fucking scared sm shits abt to go down, u just start running

it isnt until ur reaching for a ledge and some webbing shoots out of ur arm (from a glitchy little spot on ur arm, where it could be coming out of ur skin, but sometimes its a blue and red bracelet)

it latched onto the nearest building, and thats how u find out u can grapple ur way, literally Spiderman style, out of the harbor

and bro, idk if it would be fun, or confusing and stressful, or maybe both?? to just find out u can use any video game power from any game youve played before as you go running from countries bc for some freaky reason they know too much abt you/are pursuing you-

dUDE- they had small statues of you in like every little section of their cities

u head to Mondstadt and as Venti comes screaming and flying at you (in excitement, but ur freaked), u go to hold a hand up and suddenly ur holding a heavy stone tablet that unleashes some holographic yellow chains that freeze him in place-?? why is this familiar-

oh my god u have the sheikah slate from Breath of the Wild,

and as ur booking it out of there, u manage to get ahold of a sword, and u know exactly how to use it to knock back favonius knights trying to stop you (they are concerned for their god who is just unleashing random powers on ppl, pls let Grandmaster Jean just talk to you Your Majesty-!!)

by the time you teleport ur way to Inazuma, (bc u still have this worlds access to ur player/traveler’s powers), ur trying to find a nice place to stay for a little bit

at least in that sweet spot of the Raiden not noticing/finding you, while things cool down on the main continent, before moving on,

and u get some tools to help fashion just a little shelter, bc u dont have any money/mora rn, and ur able to literally build a house???

a mailbox pops up and thanks you for renting with Tom Nook???? As in Animal Crossing-

and rlly if the BOTW/slate thing didnt clue u into video game powers, then this definitely would tbh lmao

right as u see Yae Miko circling ur house, with an armful of books? ..is she planning to thru them at you??, u get the hell out of dodge before her favorite god can follow along

(she knows ur prefrences in books and got authors/trends to start so youd have plenty to read, and she was making sure it was ur house before politely dropping them off! how was she to know thatd spook their favorite God, Ei?!)

u get to Sumeru and think ur safe, hiding in an abandoned forest watcher outpost (1 person treehouse rlly) when Nahida shows up in ur dreams,

and u just,

walk out of the dream, into reality, and possess a nearby ruin guard so u can sleep in peace, bc she cant access a robot,

that one baffled u as you re-possessed ur own body before realizing-

Five Nights at Freddy’s. 💀

U cant do that forever, so u try Fontaine, hoping Neuvillette/Furina wont rlly give af abt you, plus theyre the latest region, so maybe they have the least exposure to whatever the other archons didnt like abt you??

u get there and are immediately summoned to court, and right as the mekas show up to escort you, jfc they have a mecha army

(meanwhile, theyre thinking, yknow. high profile guest/our god of gods. ofc we need state of the art mekas to escort them, its only polite-)

meanwhile ur cape has now become wings, and a mask covers ur face as you glide and fly ur way over the city in an attempt to get to where u assume Snezhnaya is

it doesnt occur to you the game until ur running out of stamnia and catch ur reflection in the waters of fontaine, Sky: Children of the Light

u hope the Tsaritsa’s dislike for other gods/Celestia doesnt extend to ur otherworldly presence so ur just hoping for the best atp tbh

tbh youd forget what all powers you have, and the absolute chaos ur causing urself as u try to desperately rememeber what games youve played thru ur entire life is NOT helping to reduce confusion when u randomly wake up with elf ears (legend of zelda/botw) or get dragged into another ruin machine when u fall asleep/faint/do smth u guess mimics death lmao- (fnaf) 💀

…

(meanwhile the Tsaritsa does get wind ur coming this way, and just, makes the people have a parade/festival to celebrate you coming,

she did also have to get Pierro/Captaino to physically restrain some of them from going ahead to meet/escort you to the palace, she’d heard how the others scared u off, and was, ironically, hoping the warm welcome would clear things up)

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well that was, something. 😃🫠

sorry lil car, that was such a fun idea idk if i did it justice!! i thought itd be too op to include every media youve consumed ever, so i kept it to video games, (which, could u cheat the system if youve played smash bros??)

i hope it was at least a decent read, and sorry im half asleep so i was not v funny this time around, but, again, hope u got smth out of it 😭

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on another note, im having my wisdom teeth surgery this friday, send whatever u got my way, prayers, blessings, good vibes, ill take anything im nervous 🙃

have a good week guys!

Safe Travels Lil Car,

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saiintvalentiine · 5 months ago

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hey. hey saiint. do you remember your post abt watchers from like, a day ago. how they could take an 'empty' clone and use it as a vessel or whatever. so. two things abt that.

a) the idea of watchers in kww collab Fascinates me deeply and now theres an au in the back of my head where wato becomes a watcher. its fascinating. dont mind me i think about watchers too much okay

b) do you. have you considered voidfies.

this ominous fucker that wato got the mask from. completely void, has the texturing of wifies skin and the omz mask, shows up in a couple of the kww collab videos? have you thought abt them? bcs. idk i think this could be relevant to the idea of watchers or well distant gods or whatever. bcs look !! empty ominous weird guy who is prolly A Wifies is right here !!!!!

JUST THOUGHT IT MIGHT BE A FUN IDEA !!! idk pls ignore this if i said anth wrong lmao

welcome welcome lime !!! all kinds of fun ideas r always welcome in my inbox never worry !!! I luv yapping 💜💙 The post in question for those who don't know: watchers using clonefies as a puppet/vessel!

Oh Voidfies my deeply belothed. Love hate relationship with that wretched thing. What is it. What does it do. Why is it in my house. Wato got the mask from it, but it also seemingly took the mask back as well, and then seemingly did this several times ? As in how was Wato functioning seemingly normally when not in the Evilfies server, normally enough that Ken asks them for the IP and doesn't sense anything wrong with her? Idk if that makes sense. gyaru peace sign this will haunt me forever and that's why all I write is post canon.

There's two ways I'm imagining Voidfies in this au now that we're talking abt it: one is that it is straight up just a puppet/vessel that's even further stripped down, and depending on your take on the Omz mask, the mask is either what helps the watchers control it, or the Omz mask is parasitic in some way and isn't of watcher origins.

Another take on it that I'm really enjoying is the idea that 1, the clones are at least partially made of void magic, and 2 the Omz mask may have started as a watcher tool but something broke/severed it's connection and now it's basically a rogue entity. So what if, in the absence of a proper vessel, the Omz mask. . . picks the other clones for parts, so to speak, and created Voidfies out of the void imbued within them, which I mentioned here just really briefly in the end. It'd be a body that wouldn't fight back or have much sentience, the mask could do whatever. Without it's main source of power, I wonder what the mask does to keep itself alive. . . ?

so many fun thoughts here to think of........... i hope this was interesting ! Dunno if this is where you thought it'd go djfhgkdjhfg

#ask #enlighten3d #always happy to spitball ideas !!! dont ever worry abt dropping stuff into my inbox #i hope this wasnt boring dkfjhgkdjfhg #saiintly apocrypha #au tag

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lets-all-calm-down-a-bit · 23 days ago

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I saw your post about a house md au for SF and I am DYING to hear abt it

What’s their first interaction with house like?

Oh HELL yes!!! Thank you for sending this!! It's actually the other way around- a smiling friends au of house md, however I will STILL gladly answer this because WHO CARES ABOUT SEMANTICS

Anyways House is like, the perfect candidate for a smiling friends job- so I'd like to imagine Cuddy or Cameron called in for him or something because he got on their nerves. (Wilson wouldn't because he has little faith in what they could actually do to help someone like House lmao)

First off: House is a critter in this au. This effects nothing other than the fact that he highly enjoys doing random out of pocket jumpscares and shit. When Pim and Charlie come down to ppth to see House, he's in his office and greets them like "oh sorry I didnt order any hookers, but if the service is free I wont look a gift horse in the mouth" which automatically has Charlie being like, "Ok pim this guy looks like he's gonna be a pain in the ass- are you sure you wanna do this?" and Pims like "Oh, don't worry charlie! I'm sure he's just using humor as a defense mechanism! Besides, it's not the first time I've been mistaken for a male sex worker!" Which has Charlie shocked into silence for around a full minute while he's trying his best to understand how the hell Pim would be mistaken for a sex worker in any circumstance.

The entirety of the episode is Pim slowly losing his determination as each layer of House's facade peels back to reveal another god damn layer of sarcasm, and by the end of it- they haven't fixed him or his drug addiction, but they get him to smile by saying something that gives him an epiphany on his most recent case- (which are ten times more absurd in this au obviously)

At some point throughout all this, charlie raises questions about him and Wilson- to which house obviously answers with crude jokes about being gay and having graphic sex on hospital property, which Pim takes at face value for some reason, and it becomes a bit throughout the ep where Pim just refers to Wilson as "House's partner," as Charlie is trying very hard to tell him that House is joking, while House just adds fuel to the fire by making another joke and further cementing the assumption into Pim's head. Charlie gets called homophobic at least twice.

This is all I can think of for now because I actually hadn't thought about them meeting yet- I was more thinking about the different style house md would take on under the smiling friends au-

But I hope you like these ideas (:

#colby rambles #asks #malpractice md #hatecrimes md #house md #smiling friends #charlie dompler #pim pimling #dr house #dr gregory house #gregory house

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hyuckbeam · 2 years ago

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try again

things don’t seem to be going the way you’ve been wanting them to go the entire week. to make things even worse than they already are, your boyfriend (or rather ex-boyfriend) dumped you in front of the entire campus. you can’t seem to lift yourself up and try again — well, that is until he comes into your life.

pairing | college barista!jeno x college student!reader

genre | fluff, angst, college au

warnings + notes | afab!reader, a bit of cursing, ex-bf being a red flag, mentions of alcohol, roomie!ningning, that’s p much it!

wc | 5.1k words

a/n | im super duper excited to finally release this chapter of the tttc series!! personally, i just like the overall flow of this one and i hope u do too!! let me know what u think abt it :> as always, rbs, likes, and feedback are appreciated!

song recs | all 4 nothing - lauv, the loneliest time - carly rae jepsen, tfw (that feeling when) - enhypen

tttc m.list, main m.list

the first time you met him was seriously by coincidence.

your stomach had you hurling for the past few days, not to mention how sore you were from phys-ed class yesterday. you still remember asking your coach to let you off the hook for the day, but they denied your request – oh well, they were never a great teacher anyways, you think to yourself. your own boyfriend hadn't even checked up on you once to ask if you were doing alright. it’s not like you were going to burden him or anything… you just wanted a little bit of reassurance to get you through the week. was that so much to ask for?

as if all odds were finally in your favor, a light buzz from your phone snaps you out of your thoughts. you pick it up to see your boyfriend’s caller id. maybe this was it. maybe the gods finally heard your pleas to make life just a teensy bit bearable for you.

“hey, i think we should meet up for a moment. do you have time?” is the first thing he’s told you all week and for some reason, instead of the comfort you were anticipating, all you felt was sheer annoyance. not even a simple how are you? the lack of emotion he’s displayed just breaks your heart even more than it already is.

you still manage to reply, mimicking his dry tone instinctively. “yeah, where?” it's faint, but you’d be lying if you said there wasn’t a little hope in you. maybe he wants to meet in person to give you a hug, maybe a kiss? you desperately want that to be true.

“at the campus open grounds, you know, the one near that coffee shop?” he suggests through the call and you once your head despite him not even being able to see you. “okay, i’ll see you then.”

you couldn’t even believe he just asked if you knew where the open grounds were located. doesn’t he remember that’s the place he asked you out? perhaps it was an important event only to you. the thought manages to send a dry chuckle out your throat — it already didn’t seem like your little meetup with him was going to be of any help to your mood.

not much time had passed by the time you arrived at the chosen spot, setting your sights on a nearby bench to rest your feet as you waited.

a lot of people crowded the grounds today. it wasn’t usually this jam-packed, but you suppose the bright and sunny weather encouraged people to roam around outside. after all, the sky hadn’t been this pretty shade of vibrant blue in a while. you’re thankful the weather is good — at least something seems to be turning out well today.

your boyfriend arrives, albeit later than expected, even though he was the one who asked you to come out in the first place. you had been scorched by the sun’s rays for over ten minutes now, wanting nothing more than to just head back indoors.

“sorry i uh… took a while. i’ll make this short.” he states awkwardly, a bit too much considering you were dating. “i’m breaking up with you. i just fell out of love, you know that feeling, right?” your relationship was never the best, this was inevitably going to happen someday, but hearing it out loud was what did it for you.

out loud… wait. you look around to find practically everyone around you whispering to themselves, watching the scene between you and your boyfriend unfold — eating it up like it's the plot of a famous drama.

the shame, the anger, the embarrassment, you just wanted to get away from it all. the hope you gained earlier was all an illusion. your days weren’t going to get any better as the week just became like the stuff that comes out of nightmares. you utterly felt sick to the bottom of your stomach. not only did you get dumped, you got dumped in front of so many people.

without saying another word to your boyfriend — or should you say ex-boyfriend — you grab your things and take a run towards the nearest alleyway that just happened to be the one at the back of the coffee shop.

you crouch down to the floor, curling up into yourself as best as you could before finally letting emotions overtake you, just enough to calm you down. surely no one would find you here if you let out a tear or two, right?

wrong. whoever put that idea to your brain was a big dumbass (whoever being you) because a boy emerges through the shop’s backdoor and into the alleyway, presumably taking out the trash since he’s holding a familiar-looking black plastic bag. however, he quickly stops in his tracks, noticing your presence when there was usually no one else there. the alley was pretty dark after all – it gave most people the creeps but here you were, willingly occupying a small portion of the horrid area while bawling your eyes out. “um… i don’t usually do this, but do you want a cup of hot chocolate?” the guy offers, rubbing his nape sheepishly after noticing your tear-stained cheeks.

you can’t help but silently thank him for not bringing up your appearance in the conversation. you probably looked like a disheveled tomato by now, prompting you to wipe your tears with your arm to at least make yourself look presentable. “actually… yeah, that would be nice.”

you got a better look at him now that you were seated in the cafe, the warm lighting easing your nerves little by little. as expected of him, there’s a welcoming aura that surrounds his figure, a calm smile that’s sure to brighten up anyone’s day (including yours), a tiny little mole below his eye, and the shiniest hair that made you want to touch it — that probably wasn’t the most appropriate thought you’ve had all day.

what you didn’t expect was that he’d actually give that cup of hot chocolate free of charge. you didn’t even know who he was (and probably vice versa). still, it made you gain back a little bit of hope that was lost. with a soft smile now spread across your lips, you begin to ponder that maybe today could still turn out to be better for you.

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the rest of your day goes better than anticipated, and you’re beginning to think that barista you met at the coffee shop is some sort of miracle worker or a lucky charm. even if he wasn’t, you sure do feel lucky you ran into him – though the situation wasn’t exactly the most ideal in hindsight. still, the thought manages to keep your spirits high all the way until you reach back to your dorm.

“ning yizhuo!” your sudden call turns two heads in the room, one being the said person, and the other being her cousin, renjun. the latter often came by and you were quite used to his presence and practically saw him as a brother.

“oh no, not the government name!” a sarcastic tone laces your roommate’s voice. truthfully, she had already heard about your breakup and was expecting you to be bawling your eyes right about now… except… you weren’t. in fact, you had a beaming smile displayed for everyone to see. weird – renjun had probably thought the exact same thing as they gave each other identical looks.

this goes completely unnoticed by you, dropping your bags before making yourself comfortable by the couch. “seriously, you guys won’t believe what happened earlier.”

“... you got dumped?” renjun voices out slowly, almost as if he’s testing the waters still.

“no! i mean yes, but that’s not what i was going to talk about.”

“why aren’t we talking about that? your ex was a douche- i can finally talk shit about him!” ningning cheers.

renjun clears his throat, “more importantly though, are you really fine?”

his words linger in your head for a bit. were you really okay? genuinely speaking, you didn’t feel much – probably because you expected your relationship to fall out eventually. both of you wanted different things and came to realize that. there was an underlying feeling of gratitude that your ex finally cut through the cracks of your bond, but you could definitely do without all the public shame though. that might continue to haunt you, but what’s done, was done.

“mhm, i’m really fine. i’ll get over him sooner or later.” you answer softly. both renjun and ningning could tell you were certain, silently agreeing within themselves to drop the topic completely. “but gosh, i probably wouldn’t have been able to make it through the day if it weren’t for that barista guy in the coffee shop.

you see renjun’s ears visibly perk up at the mention of a barista there, like he already knew who you were referring to. “do you mean the guy who works there? y’know, the one who kind of looks like a fluffy white dog and has a mole under his eye?” god, was he spot on with the description too.

“that’s him!” you gasp out, still in slight shock. you suppose renjun frequents the shop – especially since that’s where he and his girlfriend go to study. “huang renjun, are you psychic?”

that seems to bring out a snort in him, “you just knew that now?” he remarks rather playfully, “actually, his name is jeno. we’ve been friends for a pretty long while now.”

ah, so his name is jeno. you wouldn’t tell anyone, but you mayhaps ingrained that piece of information straight to your heart.

the second time you met him, you just wanted to see him one more time after.

ever since you learned about his name from renjun, he seemed to pop up in almost every conversation you engaged with. was he always this popular or were you just really ignorant to the people around you? it’s crazy how much you’ve been thinking about him ever since.

“put a finger down if you’ve gotten butterflies from a stranger!” frankly, you’re startled at the command, forgetting that you were in the middle of a ‘never have i ever’ game with your group of friends. jeno just so happened to be there too since your friend groups actually aligned well within each other. with him personally being around, you couldn’t seem to focus on anything except him. it’s the nudge ningning aims at your shoulder that gets you placing a finger down, remembering you’re still part of the game. you suppose your brief interaction with jeno does count as part of this…

this small action had the entire group cooing. it was a bit overwhelming, not knowing what to do when so many eyes were set on you. wanting to brush it off, you simply give a shy smile to the crowd, persuading them to not go any further and just continue on with the game. luckily, that’s exactly what they do and you’re met with sweet relief – finally letting out a breath you didn’t know you were holding in the first place.

still, your gaze shifts back at jeno. had he realized you were the person that bawled their eyes out in the back alleyway of the coffee shop? had he realized you were the one he offered a free cup of hot chocolate to? had he realized you were staring at him like he held the entire universe in his hands?

but most importantly, had you realized he was looking back at you the same way? no? maybe that’s for the best.

the air was getting too stuffy in the room for your liking, you had to excuse yourself out for some fresh air. it was already pretty dark out and you weren’t sure when your friends would finally call it a night. frankly, the breeze was much colder now (and you kind of regret not bringing a jacket out), but at the same time it was calming and quiet – a sharp contrast to the lively atmosphere held inside.

that serene silence was cut off by the faint sound of footsteps coming from the main door, jeno’s figure coming into view. what was he doing out here?

“hey… inside got too much, huh?” guess you and him share that opinion as you nod in agreement.

“a little?” your nose scrunches up at the thought. “i don’t usually mind it but it does get me swamped sometimes.”

a small hum is what comes out as a reply, the both of you opting for the comfortable silence the night bears. a few ruffling sounds are heard coming from jeno and before you could ask him what was making the noise, you felt warmth embrace you from behind. it was a jacket. not just any jacket, his jacket.

“sorry, did i startle you? it’s just, you looked cold.” truth be told, you were far from cold after his gesture. isn’t this something someone would do when they’re in a relationship? why was jeno doing this… with you?

it was then you unconsciously already had your mind made up. you weren’t going to acknowledge it yet, but you were completely over your ex.

-0-

there was absolutely no chance of you getting sleep that night, especially after the events beforehand. though you enjoyed every moment you spent with jeno, you kinda preferred having a full night’s worth of sleep right about now. it’s a good thing ningning was able to grace you with a cup of coffee as soon as you woke up — you don’t think you would have gotten out of bed otherwise.

“seriously, what’s up with you two!” ningning squints her eyes with suspicion glazed over them, trying to get some sort of answer regarding your situation with jeno.

“it’s not what you think it is.”

“then what is it?”

huh. she had a point there. just what is your relationship with lee jeno? it was a little foggy to yourself as well. the both of you never had much conversations, but when you did, they managed to send cupid arrows straight to your heart without fail. this was so much unlike your past relationship. when was the last time you ever felt this way?

“it’s just small conversations, that’s all it is.” you finally reply, words acting more like a reminder to yourself rather than an actual response to ningning’s query.

“is that really true?” your roommate frowns with a sigh, “you know, i noticed the way he looks at you. it’s different from others.”

“you’re probably mistaking his kindness for something else, ning. i doubt this’ll even lead to anything.” your statement is brief, but ningning manages to catch the light thread of hope in your words, understanding you wished it would lead to more. that’s all she needed to know. she knew better than to push you just to ease her own mind from the heapload of questions she has stored away.

“just know, whatever happens, i’ll always support you, okay?” she smiles brightly like the gentle rays of sunshine that slip through your dorm’s sill curtains. “okay.”

the third time you met him, you wished for nothing more but to remain in his company.

it’s just midday and you already feel like falling asleep. naturally, your feet bring you to the campus coffee shop, not registering the fact that jeno’s probably working his shift. in this moment, you were too sleep deprived to care.

“hi, can i get one chocolate chip frappucino-” you finally look up to see jeno’s familiar face right in front of you, recallings of the night before plaguing your thoughts and sending a surge of adrenaline in your body. suddenly, you were wide awake and could probably last the whole day with or without the coffee you were about to purchase.

“y/n, it’s nice to see you.” he greets softly, eyes scanning your features to find dark bags staining your usually lively eyes. “i think i’ll add another shot of espresso to your drink… you might need it.” he mutters out, more so to himself.

you can’t help but smile, finding his slight worry for your well-being to be endearing. “i’ll add that espresso shot then.” you chuckle, catching him off guard as he didn’t expect you to hear him.

“i’ll make sure to prepare your drink well.” he finally replies, punching in your order as you move to find a seat to occupy while you wait.

it doesn’t take long for jeno to approach your table, a drink with a swirly straw in hand. to your surprise, instead of simply dropping off the drink, he takes the seat in front of yours before setting it down. “i’m actually on my break right now but i wanted to talk to you. i hardly see you on campus after all. aside from when you visit here, that is.” it’s almost laughable at how predictable your response is to anything he does, feeling your stomach gain the now familiar fluttery sensation you always experience. when it comes to him, it seems to never get old, but none of that was the main point.

he wanted to talk to you. he went out of his way for you. he could be spending his break time elsewhere, but he’s here with you. perhaps you were overanalyzing his actions, yet you can’t stop the heat that creeps up your cheeks.

“sure, take a seat- i mean, you already did but-”

he chuckles, a slip of a smile coming into view. “your drink by the way.” he motions at the sweet drink you ordered. “i added more chocolate chips for you too.”

“spoiling me now, are we?”

“you caught me!”

talking to him just felt so natural. there was never a dull moment, and when silence would fill up the air, it was never thick and heavy, but light and freeing. you quietly sip your drink to these thoughts, occasionally wondering if this would be what it felt like if you two started dating- you’re thinking too ahead for someone who hasn’t even come to terms with their own feelings. you should just enjoy your time with him.

-0-

since then, you and jeno have grown closer to the point where you frequently talk on the phone at night. neither of your paths often crossed during the day, so these calls definitely made up for that – at least for you. through them, you’ve come to learn that jeno usually plays video games until the crack of dawn, sometimes even streaming his screen for you to watch. tonight, you decided to prepare ramen for yourself so you had something to eat while watching him.

“what flavor are you making today?” his voice is a lot huskier than it usually is during the night.

though this isn’t something new to you, there’s still that cozy feeling that almost feels domestic, and sometimes, you can’t help but squeal to yourself and kick your feet in the air. ningning even asked if you were alright because she thought you had gone crazy after hearing you from her own room.

“i think this one is cheese flavored? i’m not really sure since ning buys our groceries.”

“you should prepare me some when i come over next time. i wanna try some too.”

did he want to come over? your mind immediately fills with the idea of jeno visiting your dorm (or humble abode as ningning likes to call it). he’s seen glimpses of it as your background when you’d facetime each other, but what would he think about seeing it in person? there’s that famous saying that your home reflects your personality, after all. you don’t realize it, but you go dead silent, completely encapsulated by your imagination.

“hello? you’re still there, right?” he calls out for you, it’s much softer this time as if he’s checking up on you in case something happened.

“yeah, yeah i’m here. come over next time, then.”

he does, in fact, come over as soon as he got the chance to. honestly, he resembled an eager golden retriever exploring a new area the entire time you showed him around your dorm, having only seen it through a screen. on some occasions, he would point out a random trinket you had on display, saying it looked like you. he said the same about your potted succulent and you’re not sure how you feel about that one, but nonetheless, he seemed to be enjoying himself and that’s all that mattered. you were practically worried over nothing the other night.

“didn’t you say you were going to prepare me a little treat too?” jeno questions, finally finished with going around the dorm room.

“hm? oh, right the ramen-” you recall, immediately taking a few steps to the kitchen to prepare what you had promised him. “make yourself comfortable, i won’t take long!” it really doesn’t take much to make instant ramen, after all.

once it finishes boiling, you carefully transfer it to one of those gold-colored, aluminum pots to keep the ramen warm – making sure to add a few toppings to the dish to make it a bit more filling.

you make your way to the living room, seeing jeno on his phone by the couch. there’s that domestic feeling worming its way up on you again that has you wondering how it’d be like if jeno was your boyfriend. would he come visit over often? would you be able to visit his dorm sometime? the thought continues to remain on your mind for the entirety of jeno’s stay.

you really wanted this moment to become just as frequent as your nightly calls with him.

the most recent time you met up with him, you finally acted on what you’ve been holding in all this time.

ningning had invited you out to a party, luring you in by slipping that a certain someone was also going to be there. all jokes aside, you knew she also just wanted you to have fun, it’s been a while since you’ve gone out to a party anyways.

the event wasn’t anything fancy, your average college party hosted by one of the frats. you wore a black mini dress, one you bought but never got the chance to use until now. it fit you perfectly in all the right areas, but it took a lot of convincing from ningning’s part for you to actually buy it. you surely had to thank her now or else you wouldn’t have anything to wear for tonight.

“you’re finally wearing it!” it seems you weren’t the only one excited to see yourself wearing the dress as your roommate’s eyes sparkle at your outfit. “here, here. i’m letting you borrow these too since they match.” she hands over a pair of black earrings made with sequins and glass beads. it looked perfect for the look.

“thanks, it isn’t too much, right?”

“not at all! plus, it’s a party. who cares what others think- what’s important is that you look good!”

this makes you let out a small laugh, she was right. she always is. “okay then, let’s go?”

“lets!” ningning takes her purse from the coffee table before linking her free arm around yours. “we should get going if we don’t want to be late.”

it’s a good thing you both left when you did since the two of you arrived just on time. the party had already started a few minutes ago with some people already wasted (they probably drank before everything even started…). it doesn’t take long for you and ningning to manage through the sea of people, finally spotting a couple of familiar faces by the corner of the room.

“hey, you two made it!” renjun beams alongside his girlfriend, a plastic red cup in hand containing who knows what. “oh y/n, jeno’s by the kitchen. he was asking where you were before you arrived.”

“oh? thanks jun, i’ll go see what’s up.” you offer him a small smile before leaving ningning’s side and trying to find where the kitchen was located. after a bit of roaming around, you eventually find the boy you’re looking for.

cheeks flushed, dazed eyes, and a lopsided expression. jeno was probably no where clear from sober by the looks of it. guess you weren’t going to drink today, especially when your friend isn’t in the right state of mind.

“jeno? renjun said you were looking for me.” you call out to him softly in hopes he could hear you through the music that’s blasting on the speaker system.

by the sound of your voice, his head quickly turns in your direction. “y/n! i’ve bween looking por you everywhere!” he immediately wraps his arms around your figure, burying his head in the crook of your neck. your cheeks have flushed now too, not from alcohol, but because of the way he’s hugging you.

you never imagined jeno to be big on skinship while under the influence – well, you’ve never dealt with a tipsy jeno in general until now, so this was truly going to be one hell of an experience.

“have you, really?” you question him, patting his hair. “i’m here now though. did you need me for something?”

you feel him nod against your shoulder, “i wanted to kiss you but you were nooowhere to be found, and then renjun gave me a drink, and then haechan started laughing, and then i started laughing-”

he was beginning to ramble off and probably won’t remember any of the things he’s telling you right now. would that also include how he just confessed he wanted to kiss you? you know jeno’s just drunk, but there’s a part of you that hopes he wouldn’t forget that. you urge him to stand up straight for a moment before letting him lean onto you for support. the best you could do was probably have him sit outside for some fresh air (and maybe a cup of water).

-0-

the two of you are now seated silently next to one another with jeno’s head resting on your shoulder, and it’s reminiscent of the first time you actually had a proper conversation with him. the night was just like this, and yet, so many things have happened already since then.

“hey, about what i said earlier…” oh, he sobers up rather quickly. “y’know, about the wanting to kiss you and all that.”

you turn to face him with a bittersweet expression, the nearby streetlamp placing a soft glow over your features and jeno wonders where that solemn look on your face is coming from. “hm? no it’s alright. i’m sure we all say things we don’t mean when we get drunk. it’s normal.”

“well no, because, i did mean it.”

“that’s okay- huh?”

“i like you, y/n.” although its dark, you know he’s staring at you, waiting for you to respond.

“i… i do too, but we just met like a month ago.” you hadn’t even come to terms with your own feelings yet. “wouldn’t we be, i don’t know, going a little too fast? maybe both of us aren’t currently in the right mind.”

“that just proves my point even more. in a mere month of us getting to knowing each other, i’ve come to learn so much about you, grown so fond of you, and… i just want to be with you. trust me, i had a lot of time to think, but if you need more time. i’ll wait for you.”

now you were conflicted. did you really need more time to understand your own emotions?it’s not like you hid your affection for the boy, instead, it was quite the contrary. people started looking for you through jeno and others asked you about jeno’s whereabouts. its as if you two were now two peas in a pod, and everyone knew. were you going to break something you cherished just because you felt like your emotions hadn’t been sorted, when in reality, have been perfectly laid out right in front of you all along?

“no. no need.” your eyes crease as you smile at him, “i know what i want, and it’s you. it’s always been you.”

he doesn’t need any more validation than this, snaking his arm around your waist before pulling you close, lips barely touching. “can i kiss you?”

“please.” you surely don’t need to tell jeno twice, wasting no time as he quickly locks your lips with his own in such a way that you’d think he’s been pining over you longer than you had originally thought. you hadn’t drank a drop the entire night, but you felt so giddy just kissing him.

jeno pulls away first, and you already feel breathless from such a short kiss. slowly, he brings a hand up to cup your cheek, thumb rubbing small, comforting circles onto your skin. “should we head back now?” honestly, you didn’t want to just yet, still unable to hide your smile from the lingering touch of his lips. still, you knew better than to stay out for too long.

“yeah, the others are probably wondering where we went.” and with that, he pulls himself off the ground, extending a hand out to help you get on your feet.

“let’s go back in… slowly, okay?” you giggle out, still wanting to cherish the moment with him.

“how could i say no to you?”

eventually, you do make it back into the party, quickly spotting your group of friends.

the sight of you both sporting puffy lips and rosy tinted cheeks, not to mention your lipstick smudged on the corner of jeno’s lips had everyone raising a brow. neither of you had noticed that because it was so dark out… um, oopsies?

ningning manages to connect all the dots together, a loud gasp erupting from her that startles the rest of the group. “OMG DON’T TELL ME! no wait actually please do confirm- PLEASE TELL ME YOU’RE TOGETHER?”

you and jeno look at each other with a knowing look, feeling his hand reach out for yours before you happily reply, “yeah, we are.”

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itsgonnagetinspiringsoon · 6 months ago

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ok so i know i've literally never posted abt sanders sides before on this blog (i haven't been keeping up for a few years) but i've been tumbling down a waterslide lined with my old hyperfixations for the last few hours and ended up creating D&D au character designs for the core four sides using heroforge. images and descriptions under the cut if you're interested ❤ bonus points if you can guess what classes they are (this is EXTREMELY self-indulgent so pls forgive the ranting abt them, they're very important to me ok)

First up we have Roman! my beloved. one of my first questions when starting his design was how can i make him look as cunty as possible? the answer: heeled boots and winged eyeliner (It's a little tricky to see but he's got gold metallic eyeliner). I ADORE Roman's colour pallet so i kept it as close to accurate as i could, making white the base colour and accentuating it with the gold armor and the dramatic red shoulder cape as my stand-in for his sash. he's wielding a katana OF COURSE how could he not be. he's slaying ⚔ 🐉 and slaying 💅💋

moving on:

Patton. my baby, my honey, my ragtime gal. i decided to make his hair a little longer than roman's bc i thought it made him look softer and more approachable. it was UNBELIEVABLY hard to find something that sort of replaced his cardigan without looking too chunky but i did like this kind of loose tattered mantle, so i went with that. kept the sky blue shirt and gray cardigan/shawl, but gave him more greyish blue pants so they didn't blend into the shirt too much. glasses are round instead of square bc again i thought they made him look friendlier than the square ones. freckles bc i personally think freckles are very cute and patton is very cute so he got freckles. no shoes he's travelling the realms like the gods intended. the dad vibes are strong i want him to give me a hug 🥺

next up:

logan is quite possibly my favourite side so i really wanted to get his design right. the MOST important thing was giving him his iconic necktie, which ended up being pretty much the same color as his canon design. i couldn't give the tie specifically a pattern, so i made his vest stripy like his tie is in the show and i think it looks really good. his glasses are the more classic nerd ones which is perfect for him and i gave him black eyeliner bc i thought it made him look more serious. i added the coat for more of a d&d look (it doesn't make sense to traverse planes wearing a vest and tie) i think it gives him an extra bit of style that i love.

and last but not least:

the Anxious BoiTM himself (i've only had him for five minutes seven years but if anything happened to him etc etc). virgil's was one of the easiest designs aesthetically and hardest mechanically (you'll never guess what class he is guys i took some BIG swings). I knew i wanted him in black and purple (obviously) and i knew i wanted to give him the iconic purple hair dye and eyeshadow. i almost said screw the genre and put him in a zippered hoodie but i do think that a cloak and cowl would suit him very well (good for hiding in) and i found a combo that looked equally cosy and spooky. a bow is good for attacking long range and keeping out of danger (appropriate for anxiety, i thought) and the mask looks intimidating but actually helps him with sensory overload (with the cowl and mask on he's basically in a mini sensory deprivation bubble). an eyebrow ring bc he's edgy idk why honestly i thought it looked cool.

So that's basically it! As i said before if you can guess their respective classes i'll give you a cookie (🍪). since i can't draw, heroforge is usually my go-to for character creation and i have to recommend it (i think i talk abt this site a lot but 🤷‍♀️) it's so helpful for non-artist types like myself.

I hope you enjoyed! please leave comments if you liked they feed me (if you didn't like it, please just move on and don't let me know, i'm doing this for fun and i don't want any negativity please ❤) @thatsthat24 hope you like 🥰

#sanders sides #long post #roman sanders #patton sanders #logan sanders #virgil sanders #thomas sanders #you're too loud al #this is so different than what i usually post #sorry to all my d20 and starkid moots/followers i'm revisiting my old blorbos #i might be stuck here for a while who knows #pls be patient i love you all #do NOT @ me abt typos i wrote this at 12 am #no beta we die like logan in dealing with intrusive thoughts

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fruityindividual · 3 days ago

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Hi! I’m here for the ask game!

I’d love to hear your answer to 9 for “the mayors of simpleton”.

And can I have 15 to… all of your fics, please? I love your writing so much, how do you, yknow, do the thing?? What does plotting look like to you, how do you do pacing, how do you get in their heads? What have you learned from every story, how have they helped you grow as a writer?

omg hi it's u!! u wrote the loveliest comment on time passages the other day n i think abt it often.. hi ily <3

answers below the cut (i got to rambling x)

9. were there any alternate versions of tmos?

urmm not for me.. once i figured out wht the fic was abt it could only be that - two idiots n their lil third party teenage comedic relief.. suppose time passages is a bit of an alternate version. except they don't have a kid n their employment is a plot point (eww job) and a couple other reasons etc..

15. wht did u learn from writing this fic?

wouldn't it be nice: r/s have to be nostalgic .. i am never killing them evr again phewww that's not for me that's not my business

sirius & his very good friend: their love is subtle n kind n funny.. they should get to grow old together.... their dialogue should be awkward n i should always read it aloud to make sure it acc sounds like smth a person would acc say lol..

ironic, that: sirius' love is deeds.. remus' love is trying his best to be brave (-: flashbacks r so fun i should keep writing them. this fic is canon to me this is a core pillar of the fruityindividual cinematic universe (fcu) <3

the mayors of simpleton: sirius would b clever n witty n magical even if he lived in modern muggle times.. rj lupin's socks would be damp even if he could see the puddle.. they should not own cell phones they should not know wht instagram is boo tomato tomato!! they would not fucking say that - they'd say smth worse; smth not articulate n not self aware.. also parentheses(i) r so fun

the humours of amortentia: rj lupin should always miserably sip smth.. teenage sirius imagines being an old man w rj lupin like finding a way to roofie him for the rest of his life or rocking in their creaky chairs as ancient creaky men n he's like 'god i'm a sick fuck, what's wrong w me, why am i having thoughts.' my princess he will live forever!!! r/s in bed together before they even know wht they r to eo is v special to me and canon in the fcu <3

time passages: divorce au's bang,, having So much fun it's nice to be back.. divorced sirius thinks of the good times but he's spiteful w his words, divorced rj lupin focuses on the bad times but he's calm n careful w his words.... at least for now (: more to come..

"What does plotting look like to you, how do you do pacing, how do you get in their heads?"

(1) oh well plotting is mostly me daydreaming, like just keeping a loose order of events in my head - like [redacted] will happen in ch5 so wht needs to happen in ch4 is [redacted] etc.. (2) same goes for pacing, just write wht needs to happen in order to get to the parts im excited abt lol (3) urmm idk probs just by reading wonderful fics by lovely moots (see my bookmarks) n writing wht i wanna read next <3 luv this lil hobby it's so fun!!!

tysm for this ask, u r so sweet !! hope u have the best weekend MUAH xx

fic ask game (-:

#ask game #r/s

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quirkle2 · 9 months ago

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I was wondering if there are any rare happy ritsu moments in ur zombie au since hes always miserable I think,, like is he always miserable or is he happy/not miserable and feeling kinda good sometimes?

VWHDGDGD NO YEAH OFC HE'S HAPPY SOMETIMES im just horrible and enjoy putting him through misery

ive never been able to get a genuine smile to look right on his face in my art style either i think thats part of it. as ive said his face is just built to be mildly uncomfortable and bothered and i lean into it sm it's starting to get kinda funny

but yes ritsu is happy plenty! i think, canonically, he just seems like the type of person to me that tends to turn lemonade back into lemons. he's easy to scare and his first reaction to things is often Dread and Anxiety. he dwells on the negatives a lot and seems to be a "hope for the best, expect the worst," kinda guy, but there's a section in this post abt shigeo always loving the little things in life, and ritsu steadily learns throughout the journey on how to do that and how healing it can rly be. even if he had to grow up too fast during this whole thing and learn things a kid should never have to, the journey also gave him some good insight and lessons in other places! ritsu is smart, he figures it all out

in terms of little things here n there he's the happiest lil guy on the planet when he finds one of his favorite foods—swings his legs while he sits and munches on a kitkat bar like he's got absolutely nothin in the world to worry abt. sometimes mob does smth funny that he laughs at; for the longest time i've had this silly image in my head of mob accidentally knocking down a bucket from a store shelf and it lands on his head and he just kinda stands there and makes noises.when the noises continue out of pure curiosity about the weird echoey quality it's giving them ritsu cannot help but lose it

besides tiny things tho, when tome comes around ritsu in general is a lot happier, just cuz he has somebody to talk to that will actually respond in some way. they're sorta reluctant partners in crime at first (at least on ritsu's end) but over time and over bonding they grow to rly like each other's presence. they bicker constantly but it's almost always fond eventually, and they shove each other and playfight until mob gets antsy enough to get worked up about it. rly, tome is a godsend to ritsu's mental health—after months and months of being effectively alone with his thoughts, he finally has another person to converse with. a person His Age, too!

tome is rly good at knowing when ritsu is thinkin himself into oblivion and she's Also rly good at being the most annoying girl on the planet to yank him outta that and replace any misery with Oh My God Get Off Me You Freak. she doesn't even do this on purpose at first, but over time she learns how to tell when he's thinking too hard and, ofc, she's grown attached and she cares, so she's as obnoxious as possible to lighten the mood

when they find reigen n teru, ritsu gradually gets Much happier still. now that he knows they're safe and the gang is finally back together (and now that there's an Adult present and he can relax a lil and let himself be taken care of) his stress levels r exponentially lowered. having teru back is another instant lift to his mood—im always a big fan of teru and ritsu friendship, and i think adding tome to their dynamic simply makes it more chaotic. truly a trio of the 3 most normal teenagers in existence which will surely bring nothing but good (reigen sweats offscreen)

actually this makes me feel bad for forever torturing him im gonna go draw happy zau ritsus brb ,.,.ok imback <3

#qktalks #anon #zombie au #tw guns #<- for that glock in the corner . sorry #actually it looks like he's at gunpoint in that one and just going teehee about it #he looooooves tormenting tome .and tome loves tormenting him. it's their favorite pastimes #i don't rly like the second one too much tbh the sleeves are weird but i think that's just the Nature of how poofy they can get #oh this is a great time to talk abt their dynamic. sorry.this ask isn't abt that.but now it is #so i realize that tome and ritsu ??? don't rly interact in canon at all. and neither do tome and teru . as a matter of fact #but consider. uhm.what ifthey did <3 GVYIEAV #like i said they're all So incredibly normal it'll make for a great time #^ genuinely i do think so actually. most of the time anyway #i touched on it a lil bit in recondite but i rly like the idea of mob ritsu tome and teru all being a friend group #teru would undoubtedly piss tome off sometimes she'd call him out on his bullshit #but like.in terms of the canon timeline i think post-mob teru would Totally listen to her #and take what she says abt How he is into consideration. he's trying to rebuild himself into somebody better #teru and ritsu already have a dynamic in canon but it feels pretty loose and it isn't fully explored at all #i think they work together rly well tho. there's no real evidence to the contrary iirc i think they work together in canon quite well #they think alike in terms of fighting #and in a setting like this‚ once teru is on the same page as ritsu on zombies‚ they're prolly a pretty damn good team #there's a lot of room for things to go wrong tho #if i had to sum it up rly succinctly it'd be: ritsu's motive is fear‚ tome's motive is curiosity‚ and teru's motive is power #what i mean by teru's being power is Not the pre-mob teru ''wanting'' to be powerful and unstoppable #i mean teru wants to have power over everything that is trying to hurt them #he doesn't Want to cower he wants to Fight tooth and nail #and i think ritsu's fear versus tome's curiosity and teru's drive of power conflicts a lot #ritsu is passive in the sense that he'll do anything in his power to avoid altercations with anything to order to keep mob safe #he isn't Active until something goes Wrong. and usually things go Wrong when teru and tome rush ahead #WOW sorry i went on a rant that was Completely unrelated to the fucking question. im at the 30 tag limit bye

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antigonewinchester · 3 months ago

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14x20 au!!

thank you for the ask!! :)

They drove through dry prairies and sunken valleys and bitter yellow deserts and had reached the continent’s deep forests, green reaching up into the sky. Hours more and they would arrive at the coast and its grand blue view. Jack had never seen an ocean before, but Cas knew he would like it. He just had to see. 19 hours and 42 minutes after, Jack was asleep against his shoulder and the tension within his grace had finally eased. Yet Jack was—or he wasn’t—he hadn’t understood why they’d needed to leave when Chuck had disappeared, Sam was speaking to Dean with low, careful words, and the gun lay still gleaming in the dirt. He’d just kept staring with hollow confusion. Cas had pulled him to the car. There hadn’t been a plan, except: Keep Jack Safe. In moments they’d been speeding down dirt past graves, then pavement past Lebanon, then concrete past 16-wheelers and minivans. They’d kept driving as the sun drifted and fell slowly across the sky, painting the horizon orange-pink. Other cars had thinned out through the night, and sometimes for long minutes it was only him and Jack, heading together towards an uncertain sunrise. It was the darkness that reminded him: God wasn’t the only power in the world. Jack woke outside of Reno, rubbing his eyes in such a human way that Cas had to look away. He’d driven onto a side road of a side road, the sound of cars moving from waterfall to trickle. They needed to stay away from crowds. “Good morning, Jack.” “Where are we?” “I believe we’ve just crossed into the state of California, although we may still be in Nevada. How are you feeling?” “I’m fine.” That was Jack’s answer: he was fine. But he wasn’t fine, not after what had happened. It was a selfish question, perhaps. Jack had told him he felt empty, that he wanted to love and couldn’t, but Cas kept hoping that when he got Jack free from—he’d feel again. Something small. But there was still time. Feelings took time. It had only been 22 hours and 16 minutes since they’d left. And now Cas had a real plan.

I don't know if S14 is good, per se, but it IS a season that I love to rotate in my head (and my read of 14x20 is a bit different from the more cynical fandom takes). writing-wise, Jack's death at the end of 14x20 feels like a big narrative cop-out; it 'clears the board' for the next season, allows the writers to go back to the formula of monster of the week / the usual hunts again, but dang if they couldn't have at least shaken it up for the last season of the show. so my first thought was Chuck being nasty in not killing Jack and just leaving everybody in the graveyard: situation's fucked up, I'm gonna bounce. and then how everybody would respond from there.

another thing that I've grown more sympathetic to [not in that I like, but I can understand it] is that the writing in the later seasons wants to talk about being a good person / what "goodness" looks like... but struggles to do so. there's a frustrating / funny dissonance of the show talking abt Big Things (how to deal with losing the ppl you love, death, loss) without ever really being able to sit with that pain, which ultimately robs the show of much of its emotional depth & catharsis, imo. ANYWAY, that's a very long way of saying I wanted to look at all of that in the context of 14x20: how does Jack deal with his 'mistake' in killing Mary so everything can keep to the status quo, to make sure nobody gets mad at him, out of fear & mistrust? how does Dean deal w/ his impulse to kill Jack out of revenge, anger, responsibility & self-harm? what does it mean that Cas & Sam want to help Jack "be good" but themselves have limited frameworks, including minimizing Jack's feelings or perceptions when they're not positive enough? is being good just about avoiding the bad--or can there more to it?

been re-reading thru the Dhammapada recently [for reasons unrelated to fandom lol] and I've always been struck by Dhp IX 121-122:

"Don't underestimate evil / ('It won't amount to much'). / A water jar fills, / even with water / falling in drops. / With evil — even if / bit / by / bit, / habitually — / the fool fills himself full. Don't underestimate merit / ('It won't amount to much'). / A water jar fills, / even with water / falling in drops. / With merit — even if / bit / by / bit, / habitually — / the enlightened one fills himself full."

so it's been on my mind related to this story, even if I don't know exactly where I'm gonna go with it.

#fic #dean #jack #season 14

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danothan · 2 years ago

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God your dc thoughts are so good like you do amazing art but also your interpretations and analysis' of things are so cool and you phrase everything in such good digestible ways augh!!!! Thank you for the rambles they're the bestest ever they make me proud to be involved in a media/franchise that invites such in depth readings and in a fandom that has such talented people to do those readings!!! Ahh!! That being said do you have any Hal reading suggestions I've read enough Barry to have him constantly circling in my head but my knowledge on Hal stuff is pitiful in comparison so if you have any recs that'd be greatly appreciated keep up what you do thank you AHHH

i need to die rn so this can make it into the eulogy. i can’t even begin to describe how touched i am, so. i won’t. but just Know.

and i’ll gladly give you a list of what i have!! i’ve barely touched on most of them tho, so i can’t give a firsthand review for each one. quite truthfully, i am very apprehensive of GL titles in general, but these are the ones i enjoyed or have a good feeling abt!:

- Emerald Twilight (MANDATORY)

- Spectre 2001 (MANDATORY)

- Green Lantern: Darkseid War (essential to me but not mandatory)

- Green Lantern: Secret Origin (essential to me but if you have a low tolerance for geoff johns feel free to finish at the backstory + skip to the last couple pages that close it off)

- Convergence: Green Lantern/Parallax (this one was a rec, apparently it’s not that good but does have some very important character moments for hal?)

- Green Lantern 1990 #40-42 (also a rec, dunno much abt this but i was told that i’d like it!)

- New Frontier 2004 (justice league stuff!)

- Green Lantern: Earth One (fun astronaut hal au! i hear it makes the supporting cast ooc but hal has a pretty strong character study)

- Flash/Green Lantern: The Brave and the Bold (MANDATORY for halbarry)

- The Flash: Fastest Man Alive #10 “Burnout” (hal makes an appearance to cheer up his bud!)

- edit: Green Lantern: Willworld (also a rec!)

- edit: Green Lantern: Knight Terrors (disappointing to many, incredibly important to me. on a personal level.)

i hope this helps or at least guides you in the right direction! ik i’m missing some pretty classic ones but i have no experience with them myself, even in passing, so i don’t feel qualified to recommend them. enjoy your hal reading journey, and thank you again for the kind words! seriously, made my day :”)

#shamefully i know more abt hal titles than barry ones #i like to read random barry ones here and there but idk any of the essentials!#so if you’d like to trade titles 👀#danswers #dc #green lantern #hal jordan #reading guide #<- not rly but it’s from my own reading list so ^^;

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cheemken · 1 year ago

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Ok so you know Encanto? It was real popular in 2021. Well if you don’t know the whole idea is that this one family gets “gifts” or powers when they turn five. The gifts in order are,

Healing

Weather Control

Future vision

Plant Manipulation

Super Hearing

Super Strength

Shapeshifting

Zoolinguists

So there’s 8 gifts in the movie, and 8 champions

I think you know where I’m going with this

But I just thought to myself, the Champions are technically the protectors of their regions. But their only defences are their Pokémon

So what if Arceus saw humans appoint certain humans the title of “Champion”, saw these certain humans protected the weaker humans, and decided they needed something else to help protect the humans on earth, and decided to gift them powers

And no, this isn’t going towards a super hero AU. It’s heading towards a god AU

But yeah, Arceus decided these humans needed more than Pokémon to defend themselves and others, and gifted them powers

And when I said this is turning into a god AU, I didn’t mean the champions consider themselves gods, but the people of their regions do. At the very least Demigods

Because in their eyes, their Champions got blessed by Arceus, the god of all life in the universe and he who knows best

Really this is just the champions expectations, but 10x worse cause now they’re looked at like gods

(Also I don’t know if this has gone on for centuries, and every new champion gets a new power while the previous champion loses theirs. Or if the present champions are the first ones to receive gifts, you can decide which one you like more)

Oh and while they are powers, they can still be referred to as gifts in this AU because Arceus gifted the Champions with them

ENCANTO, DUDE, THE WAY I CRIED OVER THAT MOVIE man I just bcnxbxnxn dude the way it came to my house and broke my fucking heart giving me false hope of an apology from my grandmother but she didn't but I shouldn't speak abt that bc I'd be trauma dumping on an au lmfaooo

Anyways

HCMXHDJD YES DEMIGODS CHAMPIONS CHNXBC

It would be dope tho if like, the champions before them got the gifts too, but was then passed down to the next cause I have Diantha angst with the former champion bc she thinks she couldn't live up to his legacy even worse now bc she has powers and he was such a great champion they have a statue of him as Kalos' greatest champion and protector and she's like spiralling if she could really live up to the legacy he left behind

Anyways

Ough,,,,,, pls,,, that's so fuckin dope cnxnnd how it's really Arceus that gives the champions their gifts, but also should we still base the gifts off the movie?? I'm like thinking abt it but like feel free to also share yours on who'd get this gift and such but for me it's gonna be like this

Lance w super strength

Steven w plant manipulation

Wallace w weather control

Cynthia w future vision

Diantha w shapeshifting

Hau w zoolinguist

Leon w healing

Geeta w super hearing

Imagine if Iris is like Mirabel tho, she didn't get a gift from Arceus for whatever reason, and people kinda look down on her bc ofc she's a champion without a gift, could she truly protect the region w just her pkmn? And throughout it all she's trying to prove herself competent despite her lack of gift

But also it would be so so cool and it's so self indulgent bc I think Iris deserves dope things, that she does have a gift, it was still untapped, but she does have it, she has Arceus' powers herself maybe, that'd be cool, but ofc she doesn't know yet bc it's not as clear and prominent as the rest, so as she grew older, still trying to prove herself to everyone, she's desperately praying to Arceus to at least give her a gift too, she was a strong and competent champion, so why doesn't she have one

But ough she does she fucking does, Arceus took one good look at her and decided she's the one to truly inherit his power to protect the world, the way she could really help the other Champions with their power as well, the way she could give others gifts as well, the way she could do all the things Arceus could do, but she never realized it just yet

No cause there are nine champions so there should be one who doesn't have a gift hahah and me being me gave Iris the main charac card once again hahahah

But don't you think that'd be dope?? Idk it's dope for me that Iris could really use the move Judgement, but it's also cool to see her bond with the other Champions learning abt their gifts too, and then being the one to help them open up about their gifts

BUT ALSO PLEASE CYNTHIA W FUTURE VISION HER BEING THE BRUNO OF THE AU JDMCBDK

We don't talk about Cynthia😭😭

Lmfaooooo Wallace singing that, "we don't talk about Cynthia here, Iris" proceeds to talk about Cynthia

Man that's fucked up tho imagine since all the champions are already burdened by their gifts, and Cynthia sees it all, sees how it'll end for them if they can't handle the pressure anymore, sees that Iris won't get a power, and she doesn't wanna let her down, doesn't want Iris to feel like shit, so when she told the other Champions abt it, they didn't want to believe her, no, the pressure was already too much before they got their gifts, what more a champion without one? Cynthia felt like shit, she doesn't want to tell Iris about it, she couldn't handle the disappointment, the hurt, everything; so she ran away, hid herself from both her league and the rest of the champions

And since Arceus gave his powers to Iris (tho I wanna say he gave Hau his gift first before finally giving Iris everything he has), he couldn't give another person Cynthia's gift, also it's the fact no one's taken her title yet, she doesn't want anyone to take the champion title, she doesn't want anyone to go through the same shit she went through both before and after getting the gift

Ough shit this is making me go through it again lmfaoooo Lance w Surface Pressure HXKXXMXFJXBXK SHET

Or like Geeta w that Dolores fan song Turn It Down, please PLEASE DO YOU SEE MY VISION the line "I always listen, but never act" DO YOU SEE IT PLS she's like chdmdb she hears everything, hears every whisper, ever rumour, ever hateful comment about her and her fellow champions, but she doesn't do anything abt it. Arceus gave them these powers to help the people, but it's so hard to protect the people who doesn't even like her and will give her fake smiles and compliments when she does her duties to the point she became so fucking passive and would only act when someone tells her to

Omf okay I'm rambling this is dope I'm gonna fucking combust this is exciting chdmdb hahaha

#i like this au so much omffff #but also i wanna hear your thoughts abt it too #especially w their gifts and how the story would progress hahaha #sorry the iris bit was self indulgent tho i think she deserves it hahah #plus yknow extra angst ouo #pokemon champions #encanto au #demigod au #?? what should we call this—#an ask and an answer #jerseyk112

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candysharkart · 2 years ago

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I WANT TO KNOW MORE ABOUT YOUR EVERYBODY RESPAWNS AU VERY BADLY

thank u for your interest :)! sorry this got kinda longwinded i think. i never write stuff down lol…….

okay sooo i basically wanted an excuse to think about jack being alive post-canon, but i figured if u bring back the guy who had it coming its only fair to bring back other characters who should not have beefed it. and so! the best option seemed like the new-U system! i know they're just a game mechanic thats not supposed to be taken literally but if they're not gonna use it i am lol.

(putting all this under a cut)

roland not respawning after jack kills him in bl2 is kinda weird since he defs uses new-Us in bl1, but i could see jack using a jammer or some chump shit to interrupt the process. maya n lilith's deaths happen in ways were i……. get that they wouldnt respawn but their data could be still in the system somewhere. i also think non-vault hunter npc like scooter would have at least fast traveled once (most of the fast travels are also hyperion? i think? they feel like the same tech) so they might also have digistruct data. sometimes the system trips up, or u cant pay the fee ect ect, and u dont respawn, but ur up there! backed up in the damn cloud or some nonsense.

wilhelm, nisha, n aurelia are all perma-killed in canon, but are replayable fights, so TECHNICALLY they kind of are respawning they're just………… stuck. the new-U puts them back together but they cant move on for some reason. some goes for a lot of the other infinitely respawning bosses/enemies.

so the catalyst for this au now that bl3 is out is that post-canon, tannis is training her siren powers by shifting thru hyperion's systems, she decides familiarizing herself with the new-U system might be useful when she uncovers all these backed up and malfunctioning respawns, and realizes that if she just like. refreshes the system, all these people might come back. she consults with the other raiders about her findings, n that she probably COULD pick and choose profiles to revive their friends but not their enemies, but tannis is trying to AVOID playing god these days thank u very much.

ultimately they all want their friends back too much to pass up the opportunity and have tannis go thru with it. everybody respawns!! everybody gets a lot of confused echo-messages!! everybody cries!! the crimson raiders are reunited!!!

(this is the part where i talk abt jack and angel's respawns bc they're. specific.)

jack not respawning at a new-U is kinda weird with the context that he like. owns them? it tracks that he thought he was too good to need them, but hes also very paranoid, so what if he had his set up different? a failsafe in the Very Unlikely Event something happens to him, where instead of the nearest new-U, he's respawned at a station in a saferoom somewhere where he can be in immediate control of the situation again. it also tracks that he was very confident he could keep angel safe, but again. what if the very very worst happens? angel's respawn is set to be something only jack can activate, but he has to do it manually so no one else can get to her first. his ego was too big to see any flaws with this!

he doesnt think about the chance that something happening to angel while she's so deeply ingrained in hyperion's systems might mess stuff up. so when she dies, the saferoom goes dark, and jack's too far gone to notice. he's going to win the day and revive his daughter into the better, safer world he's going to build. this does not happen, he dies and his data has no new-U to go to so it just sits there. until tannis resets the system, which powers his saferoom up and spits him out. a new-U glitch he didnt care enough about to have anyone patch interrupts the reconstruction process and he loses his arm to it. he manages enough first aid to not just die again, and finally respawns angel, hoping she'll help him.

after respawning, once angel is able to get her bearings, she's devastated by the idea that jack won, but quickly realizes he DIDNT and he's very hurt and weak right now and this is her CHANCE. but she cant bring herself to kill him she wants to so badly but she just. cant go through with it. but she sure as shit can pistol whip him, collar him, and march him straight to the crimson raiders. once she finds them.

(there are some other specifics we have about this au, and lots we havent figured out yet but this post is already so long im sorry……..)

#im trying to avoid retconning too much canon and just working around it #but i never finished tales so. thats not on my mind with this au so much lol #i try 2 have fun......#borderlands #everybody respawns #long post

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mylarena · 2 years ago

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i dont see enough soulmate aus so. inspired by this post by @hyperfixationwizard, soulmate au where drawings and ink on skin show up on ur soulmates skin (not scars bc there would be so fucking much going on with that and im not gonna write abt itdgthfgh)

anyways. soap has always love doodling- with anything. pencil, pen, crayon, marker, whatever he could get his hands on. he’d doodle on anything and everything. the walls (when he was a kid, mainly), paper, cardboard, desks in school, napkins... but by far, his favorite was to draw on his own skin. the thought of his work showing up on someone else, someone he was practically made for and they for him- something that they could share, something that they could keep secret and hold close to their chests- it was enough to make him giddy.

so, he doodled. a pretty flower he saw on his walk to school, curling around his wrist. a bird perched on the bench across from him at the park, taking flight on the back of his hand. the stray cat that hung out on his porch, draped across his thigh. sometimes if he didnt have a notebook with him, messy schematics and notes for devices- no, ma, thats not an explosive, he swears- scrawled on his forearm.

he never sees anything from his soulmate- he checks every single day for any new marks, any words, but he never finds any. still, he keeps drawing. it doesnt usually get to him, the fact that his soulmate doesnt give him responses, but sometimes he cant help but think too much. he wonders if his soulmate likes the drawings, which leads to the thought of them not liking them, or finding them annoying, or if they think theyre bad.

one day, he caves under his thoughts and writes his first question to his soulmate, right under a bundle of primroses- “do you want me to stop?”

he waits anxiously for hours, not knowing if he’ll be able to feel the reply, or if he has to look for it, or if there even will be one-

then he feels it- a sort of pins-and-needles sensation on his left arm. he frantically rolls up his sleeve and his eyes are immediately drawn to the letters that appear on his skin. once the writing stops, he stares with wide eyes at the single word left behind- shaky, smudged, and a bit runny in some spots-

“no.”

and so he doesnt stop.

he keeps drawing, slowly moving from small little doodles of primroses on his arms and songbirds on his hands to sprawling meadows that wrap around his forearms and ravens spreading their wings across his thighs. sometimes he adds words- always short encouragements, positive quotes, or funny thoughts he has. he never gets responses, but he knows that his soulmate is still around by the occasional ink smudge that appears. anytime one appears, he incorporates them into a drawing. sometimes its a silly little doodle, and other times he spends hours creating beautiful, complex landscapes centered around them.

for years, his soulmate holds their silence. soap doesnt mind. he knows that they appreciate his art and words. at least, thats the thought he holds onto. he never holds it against his soulmate- the whole not-responding thing. hes well aware that he can be a lot to handle; hes heard it constantly from the majority of the people in his life. he just hopes that maybe his soulmate can tolerate him more than most.

he was 14 when things changed.

he had gotten home from school, completely ignoring his parents in the kitchen and opting to power walk to his room. it had been a shitty day; he had overslept and missed the bus, causing him to be late to class, and then some dickwads from the year above him decided that he was a good target to snag lunch money from, (really? stealing a kids lunch money? why would they pick something so fucking cliche? god, get some fresh material,) and to top it all off he got a shit grade on his book report.

as usual, his solution to a bad mood is to draw, get his emotions out on a page instead of letting them linger in his mind. unlike usual, though, he decides to bypass his notebook and instead grabs a pen, chooses a clear spot on his arm.

it took a while, but he finally ran out of steam to continue- it had been nearly two hours since he began. he was about to walk over to his bed and flop face down into his pillow when he felt it- the pins-and-needles of words being written that he had only felt once before. his eyes zeroed in on his arm, right under the drawing he had finished.

“two goldfish are in a tank. one turns to the other and asks, ‘do you know how to drive this thing?’”

soap snorts, more due to the situation than the shitty joke itself- and rushes to grab his pen again. no chance he was letting this opportunity slip by.

“why was the strawberry crying?”

“why?”

“because he was in a jam.”

and so the night continued like that- they exchanged shitty jokes back and forth for hours that night, up until soap was called for dinner.

#myposting #soaptag #john soap mactavish #simon ghost riley #ghostsoap #soapghost #ghost x soap #soap x ghost #ghost/soap #soap/ghost #ghoap #cod mw2 #call of duty modern warfare 2 #ive been writing this all day and its not actually finished but!!!#mydrabbles

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bones-of-a-rabbit · 2 years ago

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pov ur nervous abt ur new job but feel a little better when u think ur coworkers will be nice and friendly but then they aren’t and it sends u on a downward spiral bc ur just quirky like that

A retelling of ‘oh my god. You hated me. You’ve hated me this whole time.’, taken in a DIFFERENT mental-illnesses-go-brrr direction! Continued below the cut,

Haha yikessss! That’s cringy! I’m surprised you’ve scrolled down this far! Mostly I’ve been hoping people would see the first bit of this post and go ‘oh hell nah’ and pretend like it didn’t just plague their innocent mind with the knowledge that self insert cringe of this level still exists! So congrats! I’ve committed many crimes and you’re here to witness them

To answer some question you might have:

Who is that???: SURPRISE IT’S NOT VANNY!!! that is Babbit! Or Rabbit, or Bones, whichever you prefer. It’s a self insert of me!

Why are they a rabbit one second then a person the next?? Are those even supposed to be the same character??: Yes, they are the same person, just drawn in different ways! Why they change is a little more difficult to explain bc it,, depends, honestly sjdhdjd. A lot of the time, the rabbit is like,, an inner version, the more honest and vulnerable version of Rabbit, the ‘you’ that YOU see in your own mind. The regular human version is, normally, what the world sees, the actual, physical person that is Rabbit.

But why tho: Idk I just like weird stupid metaphors and weird wonky character designs!

What’s happening??: Rabbit has a job at the daycare! Rabbit is an anxious, stressed out and socially inept person who worries a lot about what other people think! Sun and Moon dislike them, bc this was inspired by some of those AUs where Sun and Moon are just mean for no good reason LMAO. Rabbit is crushed by this bc they thought Sun and Moon, who are PROGRAMMED and DESIGNED to be likeable and friendly and caring, would HAVE to like them!! It’s their job! It’s what they’re supposed to do! It’s what they’re built for: to like people and to be liked by people! To be disliked by them means there is something so fundamentally and ineffably wrong with them that it breaks the laws of physics- at least in Rabbit’s mind. Before they could disregard everyone who disliked them as people being people and them just having a disliked personality! But to be disliked by something designed to like people? Holy mothballs, bat man, you must be REAL KINDS of fucked up!

They think there is something so wrong with them that even the ones who like everyone do not like them, and it is THEIR FAULT that they are disliked, not anyone else’s- not even Sun and Moon’s. But that doesn’t mean it doesn’t hurt. And it hurts more when Sun and Moon fake being kind and friendly under a heavy layer of passive aggression. So, at the end of their rope and believing there is nothing that can be done to help them or fix their situation, they start to loathe Sun and Moon and start to lash out at them whenever feeling especially slighted. Is this reasonable? No! Does it make them feel better? Absolutely not!!! Do Sun and Moon deserve it??? No not really!!! And the farther it goes the more Rabbit let’s themselves sink into being as bitter and hurtful as they always tried so hard not to be. And it’s not anyone’s job to fix them but theirselves. But right now, for the first time in a long time, they really don’t want to.

Does Rabbit actually just need a hug and a warm blanket???? Idk probably!!!!

This is a self insert????: Yup!

So this is based off you??: Unfortunately!

Does that mean-: haha!!!!!!!!! Don’t worry about it!!!!!! :) Next question!

Most people’s fantasies are about their faves liking them, yknow: Haha yeah!

Why did you even make this: I’m going to pretend like I’m not just completely nuts and say, it helps me process my feelings and also ✨catharsis✨

Do you want to talk: HAHA no definitely not this is embarrassing enough as is!!!!!!

U good?: Yes actually! Just weird! Sorry sjdgdjshdnvdndbdhd

Why are you sharing this: idk tbh maybe validation on some weird fucked up level lmao

Anyway thank u for ur time and I apologize for the death of so many of ur brain cells. Idk why ur still here but holy shit man idk if I should be proud of u or scared of u. I’m mentally giving u a gold ribbon tho congrats on,, reading this abomination of a post ig

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haonote · 2 years ago

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november to december - xu minghao x reader

warnings reader celebrates christmas. also all characters (excluding parents ofc) are 17 genre highschool au!strangers to tutor/student to friends to lovers, slow burn (not really.) mutual pining notes this is my longest fic ever (nearly 3k words!) so PLS SUPPORT🙏 ive been thinking abt high school romance w hao it'd be soo cute come on.. he just screams first love/hs bf lets be fr! and then those dream concept teasers dropped and i couldn't stop myself anymore i had to write hs bf minghao! big thx to lee/@skeletor-ify for proofreading 🥹🫶

you first saw him when you were waiting for dawon in front of her locker. you and him didn't have any classes together, not this semester, at least. you asked dawon who he was once she finally came to her locker. "oh, i don't know his name. he's in my dance class, though- he's, like, really good. why, do you like him or something?" she asked excitedly. you didn't answer. you didn't see him much, but when you did you would almost freeze. sometimes, he'd look back at you and smile. other times he wouldn't notice you.

it was at the library, when he took a seat at the table across from you, that you really made up your mind to ask him out. or at least ask him for his number. or just try to talk to him? but when dawon started up a conversation with him and his friend, you didn't do anything. you just stood beside her awkwardly, laughing at the jokes the three of them (mostly his friend, dokyeom) made. at one point, you started leaving, thinking the conversation was over, only stopped by dawon asking you why you were leaving. by the time you and dawon really left, your cheeks were red and you were holding back tears. at least you had learned his name- minghao.

when you got home, you went to your room and screamed into your pillow. god, you must have looked so fucking dumb and weird not saying anything. he probably hated you and thought you were ugly, your smile was ugly, anyways. fuck! you wished you could turn back time and talk to him more, add to the conversation, at least introduce yourself. you couldn't stop thinking about how much you messed up- it kept you up all night, which only made you feel worse about your appearance in the morning. you walked to your friend's locker again once the bell rang, your brain and heart torn between hoping minghao wouldn't be at his locker and hoping he would be. but your brain won, for better or for worse. he wasn't at his locker, and he wasn't there the next day, or the day after that. in fact, he wasn't there for the rest of the week. you didn't see him in the halls, either, even though your friend told you he was at her photography class. was he avoiding you? you couldn't help but think so. maybe it was for the better, you were losing sleep over him and had your finals coming up soon. and it was better if he didn't speak to you. you'd probably embarrass yourself again if he did. it was stupid of you to end up liking a guy that you barely even knew in the first place- a guy who didn't even know your name.

when you walked down the stairs, through the basement doors and to your friend's locker once more, you were hoping he would be there. just so you would know he wasn't trying to avoid you. he was there, putting on his winter coat, and you felt your stomach flip inside out when he looked at you and smiled. against your better judgement, you walked up to him and asked, "oh my god, where were you?" "sorry, i've been going to after school classes. my parents want me to do well on the finals this year." "are they at the school?" "yeah, in room 301- ms. chen's class." "oh, okay."

"oh, okay"? what kind of answer was that?" your head was in your hands. "come on, don't dwell on that. he probably told you the room number because he wants you to come. you two don't have any classes together, maybe he wants to get to know you better." dawon had dragged you to a starbucks once you told her that you talked to minghao, begging you to tell her everything. "and he wants to get to know me better through a finals prep class? seriously?" you took a sip of your iced coffee. "he was probably just being nice." "he said he was doing it for his parents- maybe he doesn't really care about the class, or it's boring so he wanted you to join so he'd have someone to talk to." "he barely knows me, let's be for real. also, if he's doing it for his parents then he probably cares." she sighed. "just go to the class. even if it's just one time, kay? if he talks to you, i'm right and he likes you. if he ignores you, you're right and he doesn't like you." you opened your mouth to argue against her idea, but stopped yourself. "fine."

the next day you didn't go to her locker. you went straight to room 301, where you immediately made eye contact with minghao. he smiled and waved, patting the empty seat beside him, which you took a seat in. "i didn't think you'd actually come," what did he mean by that? was he upset you came? probably. you just laughed awkwardly. "well, i could definitely use some practice for the finals." "what subject do you need to practice most?" "um," you would say all of them, but you didn't want him to think you were dumb. "probably science. i don't understand a thing mr. k says." "i can help you," he smiled. "show me your homework." wasn't minghao there to learn, not to tutor people? whatever. you took out your binder and flipped to the science section. "here, i got this one today."

you spent the rest of the class getting tutored by minghao. you weren't sure what that meant, and it took everything in you to not reject minghao's invitation to study in the library the next day. sure, you liked him, but you didn't want to be tutored by him. at least he asked you for your phone number when the class ended.

you spent your afternoons with minghao for the rest of the week. the two of you would meet in the library, go over your homework, and leave. you were convinced he didn't like you, and your friend wasn't sure about his opinions on you, either. until he invited you over to his house on week two. "the library's gonna be closed, anyway, because of the open house. you can stay for dinner if you'd like." he told you while you were packing your bag. "sure, just text me your address." "just meet me at my locker tomorrow. we can go together."

you knew you had to make a move, do something when you were at his house. but you'd known him for barely two weeks. you were terrified of moving too fast. "come on, if he invites you to your house he at least thinks of you as a friend." you facetimed your friend as soon as you got home. "but that's the problem, if he thinks of me as a friend and nothing more then what? then i've just ruined my friendship and embarrassed myself." "stop spiraling for once. look, you don't need to fucking make out with him. at least just try to get to know him. or just hint that you're interested in him. something! you guys have the weirdest dynamic ever. you need to fix it."

you couldn’t help but get a bit delusional as you sat beside minghao on the bus the next day. “so, you don’t have your drivers license yet?” you asked him. “i do, my parents just won’t let me drive their car.” “ah.” “you don’t have yours?” now he was the one asking the questions. this was progress, right…? “no, i don’t have the time to take driver’s ed right now- it’s almost my last year of high school, i need to focus on school more than anything.” “you should’ve got your license when you were sixteen. it’s gonna be hard juggling college and driver’s ed at the same time, you know.” “well, if i have a boyfriend who can drive, i’ll be fine.” you regretted saying that the moment the words came out of your mouth. “you should aim to be more independent.” at that moment, you wanted nothing more than to run and jump out of the doors of the bus, and get run over by a car. why had you ever even considered to take dawon’s advice?

the rest of your afternoon with minghao went well. if it wasn't for your attempt at flirting falling flat, it would have gone better. sometimes you wondered if you were just subconsciously trying to hold on to the last hope you had of minghao liking you. were you imagining the feeling of him looking at you while you went over your homework, and the time you looked up at him just to see he was already looking at you? did he always sit so close to you, to the point where your shoulders were almost touching? you hoped you weren't imagining things. but even if it was real, what if he acted like that with everyone? why did he have to be so confusing. why did you have to doubt yourself so much? you wished you could be sure of yourself just one time. just be sure if he liked you or not.

on the sunday before your science exam, minghao called you. that was a first. "hey, what's up?" you asked. "your science exam is tomorrow. what's your address? i'm gonna come pick you up so we can study at my place." "are you sure? don't you have to study, too?" "i've already studied, don't worry. text me your address, 'kay? bye." "bye?" you hung up. 'pick you up'? was he gonna drive?' you felt dizzy. the whole conversation made your heart flutter. you quickly texted minghao your address. "mom, is it okay if i go to minghao's house? it's to study for the science exam tomorrow." you asked, standing in the doorway of the kitchen. "minghao? is that the guy?" "yeah, the one who's been helping me study for the past two weeks." "you can go, but focus on your studies. i'm trusting you to spend this time studying and not doing something else." "thanks, mom."

you waited on your living room couch, scrolling on your phone until you finally heard a knock at the door. you jumped up and opened the door. "hey!!" you smiled. "we're going to your house, right?" "yeah, let's go." "okay," you said bye to your mom before closing the door. "we're driving there?" you asked as you got closer to the grey toyota parked on the street. "yeah, i managed to convince my parents to let me drive." he opened the passenger seat door for you and you got in. he quickly got in the driver's seat beside you. "since you don't have your driver's license, and you live far from my place, i might as well drive you." "thanks." you blushed. the two of you spent the car ride in comfortable silence. you didn't want to bother him while he was driving, so you just looked out the window. after a little over ten minutes, you had arrived. why did minghao tell you that you lived far from him? when you got inside, you went to his room as per usual, taking out your notebook and binder and going over your notes. around four pm, the two of you decided to take a break and grab something to drink. you walked together to the cafe down the street, and when you ordered minghao paid for your drink without a word. "thank you so much for paying for my drink, by the way. you didn't have to." "it's no problem." you smiled before hugging him, just short enough that it wasn't weird but long enough to remember the smell of his perfume. you took a sip of your drink, avoiding looking at him because you were afraid of the expression that would be on his face. curiosity got the best of you at the end, and you glanced over at him. his ears were red, but he had a normal expression on his face otherwise. you hoped that was good. it probably was.

minghao drove you home. he got out and this time, he hugged you before you left. "let me know how the exam goes." he smiled. "of course!"

"no fucking way he invited you to his house." dawon took a sip of her iced coffee. "i know, right? and he drove me there, too. and paid for my coffee…" "he likes you. it's so obvious." "are you sure?" "yeah, do you see the way he looks at you?" dawon sighed. "he better ask you out soon. before new years." "i really hope you're right." you were so afraid you were imagining everything. you wanted to believe dawon and you wanted to believe yourself.

you got the results back the next monday, before lunch. you found minghao waiting at your locker when you came down the stairs. "how did you do?" he asked. "i got a 94!" you were beaming and practically jumped into his arms. "thank you so much minghao. seriously, it's all 'cause of you." you said, your head resting in the crook of his neck. "you worked hard, too. i just helped you." he pulled away from you. "wanna get something to celebrate? we can go to starbucks or something. or get a slice of cake from somewhere." "cake sounds good." "then let's go, come on."

your high school was practically in the middle of nowhere, so the walk to the bakery took a while. it gave you time to talk- you learned that minghao's photography class was having an exhibit on the 20th, the day before winter break. he invited you to come, which you happily accepted. minghao opened the bakery door for you and led you to the checkout, where rows upon rows of cakes were displayed. “which one do you want?” you looked at them all, before choosing one of the cheaper options- a red velvet cake with cream cheese frosting. “you like red velvet, right?” you asked. “sure,” he replied. “i don’t really mind.” “okay, then can we get that one?” you pointed to the cake, careful not to touch the glass. he nodded, walking closer to the cashier and ordering the cake, along with the drink you ordered before, when you went to a cafe with him. you sat down together, at the table beside the window. “you remembered my order.” you said, looking down to hide the blush on your cheeks. “of course i did.”

the week came and went. even though finals week had ended, you found yourself spending your afternoons with minghao just as often. you would even eat lunch together, though most of the time it was with his friends. you learned more about him, and more about his friends, dokyeom and mingyu. you felt like the two of you were friends. sometimes, it felt like you were more. you knew dawon felt the same way- once you told her about minghao taking you out to the bakery for lunch, it was all she talked about. she would ask you if he had asked you out almost every day.

the snow crunched beneath your feet as you made your way to the photography exhibit minghao invited you to. you entered the building- it was much, much more busy than you had expected. you looked at the photos that lined the walls, only partly paying attention. more than anything, you wanted to see minghao’s photos. you’d seen some of his work on his instagram, but you were curious what he’d chosen to display. at the end of the hall, you found them. three black and white photos, side by side. they all were similar to what you’d seen on his instagram- photos of him, put over eachother to achieve a sort of dreamlike effect. you didn’t care too much about photography, but the photos were gorgeous. you stood there for a while, looking at the photos, not noticing minghao coming up beside you. “do you like them?” “yeah. i really do,”

the houses in your neighborhood started putting up more and more christmas lights- it was only three days until christmas eve. you had already made plans with dawon to go to the mall on boxing day, but minghao had yet to invite you to do anything together for christmas. it didn’t help that you had to go to the mall to pick up a gift for someone, and everywhere you looked there were happy couples shopping together, walking in the snow together, taking selfies in front of all the winter decorations. half of you felt bitter, seeing all these people in love when you didn’t have anyone who loved you like that, but the other half of you kept imagining you and minghao together, holding hands as you walked through the mall and kissing under the giant christmas tree. december 24th grew closer and closer, but minghao hadn’t invited you to anything. in fact, he hadn’t contacted you at all. you knew he was alive- he was posting on all his socials like normal, so why wasn’t he talking to you? you knew the right move would be to invite him to something yourself, or just talk to him. but you didn’t want to embarrass yourself if he didn’t like you, or if he was avoiding you. you just wanted him to text you on his own accord. what if he met someone else?

you heard a knock at the door and rushed down the stairs, careful not to fall in your new slippers. oh, jesus christ. it was minghao. you were still in your pyjamas, fuck! “hey,” you laughed awkwardly. “hi, i know you’re… not dressed right now, but i wanted to know if you wanted to go ice skating with me later today, or on the 28th if that works for you.” minghao looked around a bit- you weren’t used to seeing him shy. usually it was the other way around. “like, as friends?” you didn’t want to get ahead of yourself and end up embarrassing yourself. there was no way xu minghao was actually asking you out on a date. “no, not as friends.” “oh,” you couldn’t process anything, but you knew if you didn’t answer soon minghao would think you didn’t like him in that way. was he joking? there was no way he was really asking you out. “if you’re being serious, then yeah, i’m free on the 28th. you’re serious, right?” “dead serious. i thought it was obvious.” “oh my god,” you just stood there for a second, before wrapping your arms around him. “i can’t fucking believe this. yes, yes i’ll go ice skating with you. oh my god.” “so, it’s a date then?” “yes, of course.”

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